Some times I just don't know why I can't just say what I'm feeling. It would be so much easier to honestly and openly blurt out my thoughts and feelings about a person, or situation. Alas I am chained by an aversion to conflict and/or a fear of hurting the people closest to me. Sometimes, I move on from such thoughts quickly enough and it's as if the issue were never even there. Other times the feelings eat away at me, a verminous rodent gnawing at my core. Then there are the rare instances where I have managed to assert my feelings, meekly and commonly out of deep rooted exasperation, only to find that either my voice wasn't loud enough, or my words were simply ignored. Those situations leave me frustrated and disheartened, almost to the point of throwing my hands up and walking away.
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